carnival nostalgia lyrics
second best
eyes collide with my feet couldn't keep my head up or my vision with the
street i fall down in a heap i'm afraid i can't keep fooling anyone but
me i'm not what i thought i really want to be but it's like when you're
never really satisfied when it comes around to me i'll always second guess
second best and it's a sloe gin sippin' away and it's the best you'll never
have so when i come around i think you better meet me halfway look around
not a sound i have found not one reason a failure it's all i'll be it's
a failure it's all i'll be
supposed to
as i see these changes in my friends question those decisions my margins
closing quickly reevaluate positions sinking deeper every day nervous traits
give it away and all those little lies i say i think that everyone's this
way someone said unsatisfied but it doesn't capture what i'm trying to describe
replace those feelings trapped inside with that commonplace advice what
am i supposed to do? it's right in front of you everything everything in
another state of mind i find it easy to empathize i wonder why i'm not ahead
and making lots of money repeated pattern every day it's laid right there
in front of me like an easy kill i'm not prepared to be that victim yet
i am supposed to do everything
penny serenade
stealing sleep from winter days
thinking of ways i have failed
the sun goes down when i awake
these walls they keep me from my health
floor interprets last nights memories
these days i'm not myself
i search to find the quickest way
and then stick around
singin' a penny serenade
for everyone that's left this place
i can't believe it's been that long
soon i'll be gone
killing time is killing me
with cigarettes and broken dreams
broken trees and stale footprints
drowning in a still white sea
and the reflection of me
exhale to asphyxiation
i punch the air so hard right through it's rusted out and it broke in two
cover up the damage lingers on and i smile to pass it on
so hard to breathe when the air ran out i exhale to let it out
i can't move i can't choose see right here nothing
asphyxiated when my time ran out can't you see in the dark?
don't you take my hand
i always try to fix what's broken down no time to
i'm feeling ageless and it's time to leave
i'm getting older now i just can't breathe
i point the way ahead i'm standing still
and you wonder what's going on this life is
it doesn't end when the voice carries through it's rusted out and it broke in two
cover up the damage lingers on and i smile to pass it on
so hard to breathe when the air ran out i exhale to let it out
i can't move i can't choose see right here nothing
stanley place
drive down that dead end street it's where we used to live no revelation
there railroad tracks at the cul de sac the shopping carts and the furniture
barricades never did derail that train twisted metal and the broken frames
so were we thankful that it never happened here or did we wait for that
disaster drinking beer on the sofa on the rooftop of the upside down it's
all upside down it's all do you wish for tragedy just to see it happen here
or do you smile in a sigh of relief when your friend wakes up in a hospital
room no time for remorse now it's all been broken down a penny saved they
call a penny earned and we never learned that lesson there that year leaving
pennies on the railroad tracks as a flattened copper regret upside down
it's all upside down it's all driving down that dead end street it's where
we used to live
if you fall
if you fall on your sword
you might be a saint
or you might be a martyr
you stand up straight
learn to think
but you follow blindly
the days are plain walk the lane
grip on sane catch the train to leave yourself
just left on the out bound lane
turn around talk out loud
don't make a sound hum to yourself
happy you were born with a spoon in your mouth
it was wrong what they said
it's true what they said
one at time all my friends come down
i've seen the lights and i've heard the sirens sound
but we still wear the crown
and the ground seems like a lovely place to lay
call it freedom justified kingdom
pleased by places that you've never been
selling stories that you've never seen
past your screen
more at home
jaw wired shut like trap
your senses cold and numb
you're as lifeless as a leaf in fall
put you in the stretcher watch you crawl across the street each night
makes me wonder if you could do it all over
would you still feel more at home drinkin and listening
you don't feel so alone
more at home room full of strangers that place you call your own
every night that you go out
i'm at home not thinking of you or milwaukee
like that painting left undone you have let yourself become
a red-eyed regular just another
nothing at all
i can look until my eyes turn from brown to blue and pretend every girl
that i see isn't you does it change a thing? we're hopelessly waiting for
that letter to arrive well i haven't sent it i'm alone with a pen and paper
for the present it's evident my perfect descent it began at the end and
as i looked ahead can't even take the first step can't even try to pretend
it's all in reverse that bad day got worse your anger insecurity pushed
me away and i should have known everything i learned that day but you can
never know until you try never know until you try has it changed nothing
at all i think i'll try from now on not to start at the end get the conclusion
first and then the middle begin do you think it will work for me? breathe
out before you suck in maybe i'll try to smoke again it seems to have worked
for you when you wanted me and i wanted you and it was such a simple singular
point of view an equal equation adds one and one, two one and one, two
half way
hardly walking and regressing so passive here
is it empty satisfying writing words no one hears
he threw that bottle and he threw away our time
sometimes i think it was the only way i could make you smile
you go halfway second guessing happens every time
in that doorway one decision right
you go halfway second guessing falling hard this time
in that doorway one decision right
work forever it's so hard so uninspired
is this why this town is second rate
i see through words remember what they signify
i'd like to see it on a canvas you create
carnival nostalgia
i laughed with him no tears in his eyes always wore a grin was a nice disguise
he looked like any other and these hands won't ever cover can't see inside
he looked like any other never did realize but i heard those fists they
did fly do we ever know myopic vision has transformed this show into a carnival
nostalgia for this task bury your memory with the dirt on these hands i
laughed with him he snapped like that did he hurt his friends golden silence
grins he looked like any other of our friends and i hear it's typical these
days do we ever know myopic vision has transformed this show into a carnival
nostalgia for this task bury your memory at last
seven hours
seven hours up all night and so are you makes it right 'cause i've been
thinking about you too took a long time to admit to myself i tried to make
it how it should have been but never was do you ever think what could have
been you asked me once? was i wrong? what were you thinking when i said
what were you thinking when i said seven hours up all night and so are you
never ask me anything about myself i'll always wonder what you were thinking
do you see anything i do?
still life
stop
in between the lies this is one you never will complete
don't you want that old trusty forty-five to fire
you've been turned outside so ironic that it never happened
transferred base to base wasnt brought out in the war
made you learn to hide
want to go and die
turn over shelved and locked away
still life falling down
stop your memories don't you want that old trusty forty-five to fire
in the face of all that you wanted and desired
those details all remain so flawlessly retold
stories fifty-five years old never leave
closed
wasting all along wasting all along wasting time you knew so well wishing
i was wrong but you knew all along and all the time you wouldn't tell knew
all along never let on that it was a lie knew all along never let on but
it wasn't right you look away 'cause you're so shy you drink so much you
lose your mind you look away
motor one
hanging on to the next overpass on this endless road i'm still hanging on
to you i got my head caught up in the crowd emotions run on empty fuel i've
got nothing more to give except to you so keep your eyes on the road think
of what you know keep your eyes on the road think of what you've learned
so put your hands back on the wheel and keep your head of out these memories
i've got nothing more to say to you think of what you know think of what
you've learned think of what you've learned
caught up
refined
six miles left to run there's your smoking gun that leads me to the fact
you've got no direction i've got a path to go unlike you have no goal i
may not rhyme but you've got no reason to write what will be sung to say
what will be heard by just like you who have no focus attention there's
just one thing i am sure of simplify and refine i don't wonder what you
mean when you say it's not hard to understand what you say this is now set
in stone don't move around rock the boat it won't be understood within definition
looking back now it's easy to see upheld this sorry tradition i turn my
back wishing that wishing that slow pace dead on words you say
skipping stones
when i looked across the ice cold and glassy skipped a stone so many times
to break the surface never reached the other side found rounded rocks on
the shore line this is my last time to ask you now justify your actions
out of time answer to your question wrong this time i watched the water
stand still cold and glassy wintertime skipped a stone across the ice just
scratched the surface it seemed to reach the other side lost in winter white
i find this is your last time so ask me now justify your actions out of
time answer to your question wrong this time you thought you found the answer
you're wrong this time i'm not who you wish that i would be you're not who
i wish that you would be
seasonal
watching you now like a change from the winter back to fall to the spring
skip the cold season never go back again bad advice from familiar faces
give it some time and it will all work out in the end where's the punch
line nothing gets done when nothing's put in and we're all burned out ask
me why someone said facetiously ask me why this time ask me why someone
said facetiously ask me why it's time to suffer now
crystal
polisci101
there's no regulation and i'm liberated and i'm not afraid in this police state
you have a voice and i'm listening
no domination, you're liberated don't fear humiliation in this police state
you are right now on display, don't you feel much better this way?
you have a voice and i'm listening
there's competition among friends always, the rule is freedom in this marketplace
